My Anyway Friend

“ My anyway friend” I heard that term for the first time in December… I was laying in bed for several days binge watching the show, Private Practice…It’s not like me to basically stay in bed for a few days.

This time I had a really good reason.. I’m trying to work my way through my grief. One of my oldest and dearest friends… Passed away suddenly… I know for a fact she’s in a better place because Lisa lived her faith, Walked her faith and shared her faith.

I love the definition of an “anyway friend”… They know everything about you and they love you anyway… That was Lisa to a T!

Lisa didn’t have the easiest of lives, but she made the best of everything she had. She was a friend that everyone wants, an few are blessed to have.

I could give 100 stories of who Lisa was, but I’m gonna give you my favorite…

10+ years ago I was going through a really difficult divorce, I was a single parent of four kids …one being autistic… I was trying to work 40/50 hours a week,on top of many other things, but I hit my wall.

I was having a really rough time emotionally and mentally. I was living in Northern Virginia at the time, and Lisa was still in Florida… That’s where we had become friends.

I called her and told her that I was going to be coming home to Florida, to see the doctor.

I asked her if she would please meet me at the doctors office… Because I was afraid to go alone, she said no she was busy. This really hurt my feelings, because it wasn’t the way Lisa was. I reminded myself she was going through her own divorce.. so even though it hurt me, I knew she must have had a good reason.

I drove home and I went to see the doctor… That’s when I was diagnosed with GAD… General Anxiety Disorder.

After some time with the doctor, I walked out into the lobby… I felt a little better, because I felt like I knew what was wrong with me, and now I had to fix it.

There was Lisa standing in the lobby. I burst into tears and said I can’t believe you’re here. She said I’ve been sitting in the parking lot across the street for two hours. I wanted to make sure that you were going to come to the appointment, if you didn’t I was going to go find you and drag you here.

She then went on to say, I also knew that if I met you here, you would look at me as your safe haven… Your rock…and you would talk yourself out of going in and getting the help you needed.

She was 100% correct! she knew me like the back of her hand. That’s who Lisa was. She was my rock… she kicked me in the butt when I needed it, and she loved me unconditionally.

I miss her so much words can’t express. She was an amazing woman, mother, grandmother… Sister… Daughter.. but most of all she was my “anyway friend”.

She truly was that friend who knew everything about you, the good, the bad and the ugly and loved you anyway. She didn’t just talk it, she walked it… just like her faith. I would give anything to have 30 minutes with her again.

I wanted to write this blog and put it out on Valentine’s Day… Because she will always be in my heart. I miss you lees.. and I love you…

Until we see each other again, I promise I will be as awesome of an “anyway friend” to others as you were to me…❤️💔

Love is a Verb

Love is a verb… I love this phrase when love is portrayed in an unconditional way, these days it seems to be rare!
Love is something we really tend to reflect on during the Holidays season!

Almost all parents will and should tell you that they love their kids unconditionally. That is what gets you through the rough patches. All parents go through tough times, but many in the autism community go through rough patches much more often. This can be very tough, especially when a parent is a single parent. Most often they don’t have a break from the stress. Their unconditional love is truly tested. I think one of the hardest parts for some parents is that the love isn’t given back always.

Not all autistic kids share the emotion, no connection of love, however; many do… it isn’t true that most don’t show Love…

That said I consider myself lucky. Peyton says he loves me and shows love. He loves others as well, and for this I am so thankful. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to never hear the words I love you from my children. Although, Peyton says it and means it I cherish it in a way I can’t describe.

I love all my kids the same, but Peyton has a special place in my heart. One of my greatest joys is seeing how much my older kids truly love Peyton unconditionally. They celebrate his positives and hurt when he hurts. Life isn’t always easy for any of us, but for Peyton it’s tougher, But I also know that with mine, marks and my older kids unconditional love he will be just fine.

Love can be shown in so many different ways… it isn’t always just by saying it. It can be by doing even the smallest gestures…

In our home we believe in the saying “love is a verb” and we live it! I would love to hear from you… You’re awesome stories about how love is a verb in your life.

As always, thank you so much for reading my blog…

Hope you are enjoying our 45 Awesomism Days of the Holidays!

Have an awesome day

The Park Bench

I wrote this piece several years ago for my book… I read it every so often and I remind myself it will be Okay.

There are times I really do worry about what is going to happen to Peyton, after I am gone… After my husband is gone… I know he has three older siblings, and I know they love him unconditionally… But I still worry.

I worry that I’m not giving him enough in his life… There’s so many things parents of adult children with autism, worry about… We don’t always talk about them… But they are very real and in our mind, and in our thoughts and in our hearts…

When I get really stressed about it, I read this piece… And I remind myself Peyton is not alone… Rather he is surrounded in love, and I have that faith that whether I’m here or gone… That love Will stay around him.

I can only do what I can do and plan for his future.Stressing isn’t going to help…planning is.

So as we celebrate this holiday season and we come to the end of the year where we all make our New Year’s resolutions… Let’s each and everyone of us pause, and realize what is the most important… That we are there for those who need us, and we surround them with love.

I see a park bench alone, no one pays attention to it. It reminds me of my son… You see my child is autistic, he fights battles every day I can’t even imagine. As I see the park bench all alone even though there are people everywhere.. I realize how my son must feel. Connecting with others isn’t always easy for him, my heart hurts… But I also become more determined to help him. I look around me and I see the beauty of nature that surrounds the bench. It soothes me and heals me… There are so many wonderful things about nature… I am re-invigorated as I walk away from the park bench. I look back at it sitting empty, I stop and smile… As children run up to it and compete to all sit on the bench. It’s at that moment, that I suddenly realize my son will be fine… as he really isn’t alone… He has us, and we love him unconditionally.. We see his strengths.

As always, thank you so much for reading my blog and for following us on our 45 Awesomism days of the holidays. Without everyone’s support we wouldn’t be able to accomplish the things that we are. I hope you’re enjoying it and we look forward to “talking” to you again tomorrow!

have an awesome day

Giving Back Tuesday

This is a very special time of year! It is also the time when we can and should give back… if we can! it doesn’t always have to be in terms of money! it can also be with our time!

here are a few of our favorites!

I love this idea of writing letters to our veterans! You van either do it through Lowes or on your own!

We have all seen the giving trees! these are awesome and can help so many families!

I saw this at our church and absolutely loved this idea!there are so many places that could do this, Neighborhoods, Churches, schools etc..

There are so many Churches, Synagogues, Mosques and other places of worship that need both money and manpower at this time of the year!

Small Foundations REALLY need your Support! This is my favorite! You can go to my store page and help them as well as go straight to UnderdogkidsFoundation and donate! Or choose a foundation of your own!

Super easy… drop money in the kettles and help feed the homeless

Don’t forget animal shelters! they need volunteers, dog walkers etc… etc…

I hope we have given you some awesome ideas as well as inspired you to give back!

Lloyd’s Thanksgiving Motivation

I am so happy and honored to have Lloyd as my guest Blogger… he inspires me everyday! he is an autistic adult, who is blind in one eye. He has gone through so many challenges in his life, yet he gets up every morning happy and is always there to help others. I ask that you please share this blog with others… At the bottom of his Blog I will have links for him on social media as well as some other Blogs he wrote for Peyton’s company.

 

Thanksgiving will be upon us all very soon. So many in this country has gone through a great deal of good, bad, & in between. My family & I have gone through a great deal of many things.

We lost love ones so dear to us. We dealt with health issues involving love ones. We have & are dealing with issues that cannot share with others, but God truly know what we are going through.
Last month I took a vacation with my aunt & uncle in TN. I have never had a vacation that I can remember. We almost lost our mom but God healed her, she still have a few issues involving her health & we sure do need the prayers in more ways than one.
There are or could be others who are or going through what we are going through right now. I will try tell you this, don’t give up! It WILL be tough & hard but you can make it!
While we all go through these moments in our lives, just stop for a moment & give thanks for any & all who have helped you & what you have. Be cause there are many who have nothing & who are alone.
I ask you all this, if you know someone who does not a have anyone in their life or who are lonesome, try to reach out to them. A little help from others can be a great blessing.
Two last things that I will share with you all before I close this blog.
Most suicides happen during the holidays, so if know someone who is going through a lot & you who are at risk, please I ask you reach out to them & help.
Lastly please pray for those who have an empty chair at their table this holiday season. The empty was once filled with a love one who is now gone. Please pray & thank you all!
Happy Thanksgiving & God Bless You All!
Check out Lloyd’s blog on Team Awesomism where he talks about his eye problems, he has gone through: Where I learned to live with my eye problems.
Please follow him on Instagram, Twitter, Facebook and Flipboard. He is truly one of mine and Peyton’s favorite people!