Peyton, Autism and My Yellow Laundry Room

I absolutely love shutters, on the outside of houses as well as decorating on the inside of a house. I actually have three pair of shutters in my home! 😁

When I decided that I was going to paint my laundry room… I figured out the color and the Decor based around a pair of gray shutters. I  have a nice size laundry room, but I don’t have a window in it.

I love the old tradition of hanging your clothes on the line. I know it isn’t  a very practical and it Could be  could be a real pain to do. I actually used to do it when my kids were young, sometimes. I love the smell of the fresh air on the clothes, as well as sheets.

Since I couldn’t bring the sunshine in to the laundry room, I decided to paint it like the sunshine. I picked a bright yellow. I remember the look on Mark’s face when he saw the color of the paint. And to be honest, after I got the paint home, I wasn’t so sure myself!

Peyton and I painted the laundry room together, we actually had a lot of fun doing it! We even made a really cool Craft out of wood and door handles, to be able to hang clothes that I didn’t want to put on the dryer.

It didn’t take us real long to paint the room, but it was also a good life lesson for Peyton. He learned how to paint. I love teaching him how to do things by actually doing them.

Although at first I had a little hesitation with the color, Peyton really loved it. The more we painted the room the more I loved it. It was bright, beautiful and bold. It reminded me of a bright sunny day.

After we were done with the painting, we put the room back together and decorated it. I hung the two gray shutters on the wall left a space between them and hung a pretty yellow wreath.

I love the calmness of gray shutters against the brightness of the yellow walls. They really balanced each other well! It had a farmhouse feel to it. I have some black wrought iron and antique items that I also put in there.

Once we have everything back in place, I step back to take a look. I absolutely love the way it looked. Peyton was a big help, not only the painting, but even with some of the decorating! 

In a unique way this room with its bright yellow sunshine walls… Reminds me of Peyton. He brightens my days in ways that maybe others don’t understand… He teaches me so much about loyalty, perseverance, trust and unconditional love. I love the sweetness of his character, and how it shines through .

I think about Peyton  a lot when I walk in my laundry room… Not only because he help me with painting it… but because he is in many ways is the sunshine of my life. 🌞

 

 

 

 

 

 

Finding My “Comfort Zones”

I haven’t talked about it much, but I have GAD. Which stands for General Anxiety Disorder. I was diagnosed with it over 12 years ago.

I was going through a particularly rough time in my life. So many things were swirling on around me. I felt beyond stressed with every part of my life.

When I was diagnosed with GAD, the diagnosis itself helped to relieve some of my stress. Allowed me to understand why I had such severe anxiety. Up until I was diagnosed, I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t process my anxiety better.

GAD is not something that you get over, it is something you learn to live with. While it can be a daily struggle to deal with, I actually can see positives in it.

I honestly believe that my GAD has allowed me in some ways to understand Peyton better.  I understand his triggers better. I have my own triggers, so I’m a lot more compassionate when he is really stressed.

Severe anxiety is no walk in the park. Sometimes it’s difficult for me to explain to people how my anxiety is affecting my day. It affects my sleep, My daily routines, as well as every other part of my life.

I’ve learned to cope with it in different ways. One of my favorite coping mechanism is to take a hot bath, I especially love taking hot lavender baths.

I’ve come to understand that when I get really stressed I need to do one of three things to my find my comfort zone:

1.  Talk about my stress, exactly what/who is stressing me, so that I can verbally and mentally work through it.

2. Distract myself with something positive that I absolutely love doing. This many times will  allow me to focus on something different …. the original stress actually works its way out naturally.

3. Sleep… Sleep… Sleep !! Yes, sleep helps me a lot. Remember when I said it affects my sleep? If I allow myself to become too tired, I have anxiety issues much quicker!

I’ve also learned that I have to remove toxic people from my life. I can’t allow those who just want to throw negativity at everyone all the time to be in my life on a daily basis. I take things way more to heart than people many times realize I do.

One of the reasons I love my husband so much, is he understands my GAD and works with me, when I’m going through my rough patches. He has this great expression “Shake it off” he knows EXACTLY when I need to hear this…..

He’s a strong support system for me, he plays at my strengths, works through  my weaknesses and shows me unconditional love through it all! He truly is my rock.

I discussed in prior blogs, how Peyton and I are starting team Awesomism ! This project is going to be about “conquering your fear’s and finding your comfort zone.”

One of the biggest things that I’ve learned since being diagnosed with GAD, is how I need to face my anxieties and find my comfort zones! I know I’m far from perfect, and I also have learned not to let others opinions of me, to define me.

I’m a work in progress, but I’m Learning to face my fears, anxieties and stresses and find those awesome comfort zones!

Here is a link to my book…. it’s full of ideas for “comfort zones” 

#Kindle edition:

http://amazon.com/dp/B072BWWCDJ/

#Print edition:

http://amazon.com/Mom-Awesomism-

http://amazon.com/dp/1546641653/

 

 

Light in the Dark Days

I am so happy to have Jay as our guest blogger again! I absolutely love his writing! His blogs are from the heart…. his honesty about his anxiety is refreshing… please follow him on twitter… @stealtheMGaming  as well as his blog….https://beardedigor.wordpress.com/
As I sat on the bus home, headphones in and music blaring, I find myself reflecting on my last few days. These last few days were some of my worst mentally for me. But I take a deep breath and realise a tide is turning.
It all started last Wednesday. I woke up just feeling down. I wasn’t my usual self. Was it the lack of sleep for another night, the humidity or my anxiety. All I know is something is different. I get through work with few problems. Not feeling too bad but I was excited to see my friends for the night.
Thursday however was a different matter.
I spent the whole day shut off. I went to work as normal. But I wasn’t myself, I didn’t talk to anyone, I want smiling or talkative as I can be. I was also snappy. I was truly feeling low. Anxiety was kicking my butt. This continued throughout the night and through the next day. Although by Friday night I was starting to pick up a little I wasn’t prepared for what happened next.
So Friday night. The night my ex blocked me. Now I know I say ex. But I had been waiting for her for 10 weeks to get sorted and come back. That was the deal. But yeah that happened. I felt lost, foolish and idiotic. It really pushed me back down. But it also has an alternative effect. I became motivated. I became empowered.
Despite my anxiety pushing my down and life on top of me. I had a clear goal for the first time in my life. It was me and my blog. I want to be better and I want to be successful. I can’t get rid of anxiety but I plan to use it to push me forward.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much AwesomismMom for letting me be a guest.
Bearded Igor x

Peyton….Autism….Perseverance

I came across this quote the other day “ Great works are performed not by strength but by Perseverance” Samuel Johnson

I immediately thought about Peyton and one of the things I admire most about him.. His Perseverance. He is adamant on Persevering, not necessarily the way you and I are, but in his own awesome way.

When he was 4, I was told he’d never read, write and probably not speak. While I was determined to help him in any way I could, I also accepted that if he didn’t read, write or speak that was okay. I was hoping he’d be able to do 2 of the 3… for his sake, not mine. I just wanted what was best for him.

i knew it was never going to be easy for him, but I also knew we were all in it to win it. My older kids and I were really committed to supporting Peyton in any way  we could. We were his biggest support system, and we joined forces for him!

Fast forward to June 2018… Peyton is  graduating  High School with all A’s and B’s! And guess what? He reads, write and speaks!  He is knocking so many obstacles out of the park everyday. His senior year of High School has been his best year! Trust me,his classes are difficult and intense. It seems the bigger the obstacle, the harder he fights.

He has been so determined to Not let things get in his way. This isn’t to say it’s always been easy, it hasn’t. He has had setbacks and difficulties. He’s lost faith in himself and others, then again who among us hasn’t?

One thing I’ve seen and touches me the most is, his perseverance. He keeps on and on,until he overcomes the negatives. Like I said before, it may not be the way we think it should be done… but that’s okay!

merriam-webster definition of perseverance is:

: “continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure, or opposition : the action or condition or an instance of persevering: steadfastness” 
no where in the definition does it say… there is only one way to achieve/overcome!
                                                                                    Peyton is my inspiration and drive for AwesomismMom, Team Awesomism…. and most of all he’s the perfect example of “Turning Autism into Awesomism” I’m so proud of him. I can’t believe he’s 18! He’s my “baby” knowing he’s out of High School excites and scares me.
We are starting  a new chapter in his book of life. I know there will be obstacles, challenges, successes and new achievements. Being an autistic adult isn’t something he or I have experienced before. We will face each day like we have the past… one day at a time.  I also know he isn’t facing his future alone. He has a strong support network around him, who truly love him!
I also know this…. no matter how difficult it may get… Peyton will persevere, because that’s what  Peyton does… he perseveres. As his mom ( and biggest cheerleader) I honestly couldn’t be prouder of him!

 

Coming Soon….Team Awesomism!

I am super excited about mine and Peyton’s project…. Team Awesomism!

While we are going to wait to give all the details until we actually have our “kickoff” I want to give a few details! I’ve never been very good at keeping surprises to myself! 🎈🔹😊🎈😊🔹😊

Team Awesomism is a project where we will put action to words… where we will actually work to help Turn Autism into Awesomism… not just say it! It’s a “virtual community” of sorts………

We will have newsletter, videos, interviews, contests and more! Our target audience will be autistic teens and adults, but will welcome others.. as well!

We will be using Flipboard .. it’s an awesome app and I’m a firm believer in it’s positive impact for autistic teens and adults. Peyton uses it for so many reasons!

We are in process of upgrading our website!! Yay! Starting our newsletter… getting together with awesome  business sponsors! Lining up some amazing people for interviews…..Setting up some very special Flipboard Magazines….. we are working on learning videos as well as fun ones!… We are growing our social media and even setting up an online store! 💙

We are super excited and can’t wait to share it all with you!

Team Awesomism is a project of AwesomismMom…I will continue to blog, share our journey… review awesome products etc…. Team Awesomism is an addition, not a replacement.

Peyton and I hope you are as excited as we are! Out target kickoff is June 4th! 🤞🏼🤞🏼

We will be releasing a preliminary Flipboard Magazine about Stress on May 29th…

If you’re a business owner or someone who would like to be a “team captain” PLEASE reach out! We’d love to have you!

Watch for our Kickoff and please share this blog with others, because together we are stronger! Turning Autism into Awesomism isn’t just a saying… it’s a goal!

Thanks for reading this blog and we truly appreciate your support and help!