I still remember the day that I was diagnosed with GAD… (General Anxiety Disorder) I was going through a really rough time in my life… An ugly divorce, a very contentious custody battle, and so much more.
I was slipping into a really deep depression… I knew I needed to get out of it,not only for myself, but most of all for my children. My children lived with me,and I was the primary caregiver, as well as provider.
I went to see my physician, and the first words out of her mouth were you have GAD. I really wasn’t very familiar with it at the time… But she knew it as soon as I described how I was feeling, and what I was going through.
The funny thing about it was…. as soon as she told me my diagnosis… I immediately started to feel better. Part of the reason for that was… Someone actually listened and believed me!
I hadn’t shared with too many people how depressed I was. But a couple of them that I had shared it with told me “you’ll be fine… You’re just going through a rough patch, don’t dwell on it.”
I kept thinking to myself… I’m not dwelling on it by choice, I can’t seem to get past it. I would pace at night from Anxiety, and then be tired all day, which would cause even more anxiety.
I was in a vicious cycle and I didn’t know how to get out of it! My depression and my anxiety got worse and worse.
My doctor prescribed Lexapro… I felt better right away… Not because it really did that big of a difference… But because I knew I was on the road to getting better.
I also knew, that I wasn’t going to stay on the Lexapro. I wanted to be able to deal with my GAD through lifestyle changes.
I found a counselor… Who specialized in GAD, I told her I don’t want to stay on meds, I want to do this by lifestyle change. She was absolutely wonderful… And she helped me through this horrible time, and taught me so much.
When Peyton talk to me about and a few ideas he had for https://teamawesomism.com/…I absolutely loved the idea. For several reasons, but most of all because we were going to be creating a virtual community that actually listens and cares!
This really personally hit home for me a couple months ago… I was speaking with someone who was “mentoring me“… When I brought it up with him that I had GAD… he proceeded to inform me that it was “all in my head”.
While I don’t disagree with him on the surface …that it really is in my head… 😂😂… I found it to be very disrespectful. He told me people look for excuses for not doing things. At first I thought about going through my entire history, and thr fact that I was actually diagnosed with it, but then realized he didn’t care.
At first, I felt like I did years ago… And then I decided I actually feel sorry for him… And I hope no one close to him is dealing with serious stress and anxiety… I also became more motivated to be a voice for GAD .
Dismissing people‘s fears and anxieties, stresses and hurts is easy… Helping people with them is fulfilling. I’ve chosen to be there for others.
I decided to use his negative energy and turn it around…..My GAD is my Monday motivation!