Wednesday Woman

Several months ago I put a blog out talking about how I was going to blog four times a week… I haven’t done very well with that at all. I’m sorry!

I could give excuses, and give reasons why I haven’t, but at the end of the day I just really haven’t done it and I need to be better at it.

One of my biggest shortcomings is I tend to put things off,and then I frantically try to catch up all at once… This doesn’t work well… Especially with my GAD, general anxiety disorder.

I have often wondered if I do this because of my  GAD, or if it’s just a serious personality flaw, and it makes my GAD worse. However; lately I’ve come to the realization that it doesn’t matter… chicken or egg.. I need to be better organized! I need to follow through on things at the time.

Right now I’m juggling 1000 things… Being the wife of an oil guy… Who comes and goes and works many hours… Mind you,I’m not complaining I think I have the best husband in the world!

I’m a mother of four…that alone keeps me busy! 😁 And I wouldn’t have it any other way, I absolutely love and adore my children. Three of my children are adults, but that doesn’t mean that they aren’t  in my life any less.

I always find it amusing when people say to me “but your kids are adults… What do you mean they take up your time?”  It’s as if because they are adults… They’re no longer in my life!  🤦‍♀️ Of course is usually comes from people who never had children.

If you’ve been following my blog you’ve also seen that I started doing a Soothing  Sunday Blog … Where I talk about what I do to decompress and destress. It’s essential that I do!.

My Wednesday woman blog is going to be more geared towards being a mom, a mom of a special needs teen, a mompreneur, a momblogger, a wife and most importantly a woman.

I know how important it is for me to take care of myself so that I am here for everyone else. I also know it’s extremely important for me to take care of myself for me!

My Wednesday woman blogs are going to be about how I juggle all the different aspects of my life, and still allow time for me! These are not meant to be instructional, rather more personal tips that work for me. They may or may not work for you, as we are all different.

I decided to start sharing this because I’ve had people say to me, how do you do at all? I always have the same response… I didn’t know I had any other option. I know I’m far from the only woman who feels this way every day.

Women come in all shapes, sizes, colors, religions ethnicity’s etc. etc. women also have many different views. I find it somewhat disingenuous when women say that they are for women but disrespect women who disagree with them. Be it on politics, careers/stay at home, Homeschooling, married, single  etc. etc.

I truly hope you join me on this journey of Wednesday Woman blogs! As always thanks for reading my blog… Your support means a lot to me! I hope you get something from my experiences!  that can maybe help you with yours!

Please check out Peyton‘s website https://teamawesomism.com/

Hugs 🤗  and have an awesome day!

 

My Soothing Fall into Autumn

After a super stressful month of trying to get Team Awesomism launched… Dealing with all the glitches on the website… I needed to just have a relaxing few days.

My to do list is longer than I care to admit… I put off a lot of stuff helping Peyton get his business going… I have to say though, it was really worth it! I’m so proud of him… He now calls himself… An Autistic Teenpreneur Small Business owner!

Even though technically Autumn started a while back… We just started our “cold weather”  this past week here in Texas. It now actually really feels like fall.

I started decorating for the fall about a month ago, but I wasn’t really so much into it,until this week!  I absolutely love decorating for the different seasons… You can ask my husband about the amount of storage bins we have full of decorations 😂🤣

I’ve always loved decorating for the holidays. When my kids were young it was themed more towards what kids like during the holidays. Now that they’re older I still really decorate, but it’s geared more towards what I like!

My third child came over a couple of weeks ago for dinner, first words out of his mouth when he came in the house were “I love how much you decorate for the fall”.  That made me feel so good.

As I’ve discussed in previous blogs I have GAD, General Anxiety Disorder, and having my house feel “comfy & homey”  is very calming and soothing for me. I take a lot of time when I’m decorating. I decorate differently each year,depending on my mood.

This year when I was decorating, I was more stressed… have a lot going on… So my theme was really a comfortable,cozy fall! I honestly find comfort and relaxation when my house feels super comfy.

Peyton helped me decorate this year, he loves pumpkins… So he likes to put the pumpkins in places. The last couple years we haven’t gotten real pumpkins… But we have several pumpkins that light up, and we put those outside.

Peyton decorates  his room as well as the rooms upstairs that he spends the most time in. He really enjoys it,and I enjoy seeing him be creative!

This year I focused quite a bit on my fireplace, our fireplace is very soothing and comforting for me. We got quite a bit to use out of it last year because it was really cold… I’m hoping to get a lot out of it this year too.

Until it really gets cold enough to use it… Although I have to admit anything below 60 and I’m ready to start it up! I’m lighting candles or two on the fireplace and enjoying it that way. Very soothing!

Starting with this blog I’m going to be doing a soothing Sunday blog every Sunday about different things that help me relax. I know I had talked about doing this several months ago… But I got so backed up with helping Peyton with Team Awesomism.

Thanks for hanging in there with me! Thank you for reading this blog and I always love feedback! Please check out Peyton‘s website at https://teamawesomism.com/

Light in the Dark Days

I am so happy to have Jay as our guest blogger again! I absolutely love his writing! His blogs are from the heart…. his honesty about his anxiety is refreshing… please follow him on twitter… @stealtheMGaming  as well as his blog….https://beardedigor.wordpress.com/
As I sat on the bus home, headphones in and music blaring, I find myself reflecting on my last few days. These last few days were some of my worst mentally for me. But I take a deep breath and realise a tide is turning.
It all started last Wednesday. I woke up just feeling down. I wasn’t my usual self. Was it the lack of sleep for another night, the humidity or my anxiety. All I know is something is different. I get through work with few problems. Not feeling too bad but I was excited to see my friends for the night.
Thursday however was a different matter.
I spent the whole day shut off. I went to work as normal. But I wasn’t myself, I didn’t talk to anyone, I want smiling or talkative as I can be. I was also snappy. I was truly feeling low. Anxiety was kicking my butt. This continued throughout the night and through the next day. Although by Friday night I was starting to pick up a little I wasn’t prepared for what happened next.
So Friday night. The night my ex blocked me. Now I know I say ex. But I had been waiting for her for 10 weeks to get sorted and come back. That was the deal. But yeah that happened. I felt lost, foolish and idiotic. It really pushed me back down. But it also has an alternative effect. I became motivated. I became empowered.
Despite my anxiety pushing my down and life on top of me. I had a clear goal for the first time in my life. It was me and my blog. I want to be better and I want to be successful. I can’t get rid of anxiety but I plan to use it to push me forward.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much AwesomismMom for letting me be a guest.
Bearded Igor x

Groundhog Day

We are so honored to have a guest blogger this week! Her name is Erika Joyce-Shultz! Erika has a younger brother with Special Needs. We love her writing and think you will too! I’m adding the link to her website  at the end. Please check out her other blogs! Enjoy and thanks for stopping by 💙

 

QUIT! That’s it. I cannot do it anymore. I’m sick and tied of being sick and tired.

I’m sure if it isn’t one of those particular phrases, there are others that fall in the same family that are thought or vocalized every day, heck, every hour, by someone.

We wake up each morning, and before we even have the chance to be grateful that we woke up to see another day above ground, we are immediately bombarded by the “to do” list of the day. If it’s not the “to do” list, it’s a recap of what didn’t get done the day before. If it’s not regret of responsibilities put off, it’s just the overall feeling of being “done” or just plain old worn out.

And we haven’t even put one foot on the floor.

I use to have those days more often than not, for a combination of the reasons above and then some. The moment that alarm goes off, an indistinguishable sound escaped my throat, that at best can be described as, “uuuggghh”.

Don’t get me wrong, I am blessed. I have a smart, funny, healthy, and well adjusted tween, a home with heat and air, hot water, food, a reliable vehicle, and even a little pain in the butt Shih Tzu that some would say is cute. (Okay, he IS cute).

It’s like Groundhog Day from hell, and unfortunately there’s no Bill Murray to provide any comic relief. So where is this feeling of waking to a seemingly painful and unsatisfying reality come from?

Lack. Of. Purpose.

You finally get up out of the bed, ( phew…I know that was a challenge), and make your way to start your morning routine. Make your coffee, go to the bathroom, look at yourself in the mirror while thinking to yourself, “okay, here we go again”, and continue on until you’re headed out the door to your 9 to 5. Unfortunately, it doesn’t have as great of a beat as Dolly portrayed when she sang it.

Maybe, you’re even a stay at home mom. I use to envy you, until two of my best friends became stay at home moms, and I realized that their groundhog days may look different than mine, but the feeling was just the same. BLAH.

One day as I was going through a few TPS reports, (Office Space, anyone??), I realized that I was so sick and tired of being sick and tired, that I needed to make some changes. No, I don’t mean change jobs and no, I didn’t win the lottery…although I’m still working on that one.

The changes had to start with me. Perception is reality right? Well my perception of things really sucked because my reality was pretty lackluster, to put it lightly. I began to realize I needed to feel like what I got up every day to do mattered. I began to look for my purpose.

Now, this is a process and it’s a journey. I’ve been on it now for about a year and while I’m not yet where I would like to be, I’m sure the heck not where I was. I’m going to be honest. The process of finding out who you are, what you’re gifted at, and how to use it is hard and sometimes dirty and painful.

You have to be willing to look at yourself and ask how you are contributing to your own misery. Whether it’s bitterness or anger you’re holding on to for past hurts, maybe its lack of inspiration, maybe you are not taking the best care of your health, or maybe…you’ve just been lazy.

Whatever the reason or reasons, you have to face them, accept them and then take action to change them.

Everyone has been given talents and gifts. Honestly, a lot of people overlook their talent or gift because it comes so easily and naturally to them. Here’s some potential hints that you’ve been given:

“Wow, you are such a great speaker”

“You have a way with words”

“I wish I could sit down and doodle like you, that looks great”

Or maybe people come to you for your advice, or look to you for crafty inspiration. The point is, your gifts are there, you just have to uncover them and use them.

You may be in a job that you really don’t care for, but guess what? You are there for a reason. Remember, perception is reality, so if your reality isn’t great, maybe you need to change your perspective. All the while, finding a way to utilize the talents and gifts you’ve been given.

That may mean making time for yourself after work to draw, write, read, build something, join a like minded group, etc…

Get up, stretch and dare the day to keep up with you. It’s time to move forward and find your purpose sweetheart.

Groundhog Day is over.

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