My Soothing Fall into Autumn

After a super stressful month of trying to get Team Awesomism launched… Dealing with all the glitches on the website… I needed to just have a relaxing few days.

My to do list is longer than I care to admit… I put off a lot of stuff helping Peyton get his business going… I have to say though, it was really worth it! I’m so proud of him… He now calls himself… An Autistic Teenpreneur Small Business owner!

Even though technically Autumn started a while back… We just started our “cold weather”  this past week here in Texas. It now actually really feels like fall.

I started decorating for the fall about a month ago, but I wasn’t really so much into it,until this week!  I absolutely love decorating for the different seasons… You can ask my husband about the amount of storage bins we have full of decorations 😂🤣

I’ve always loved decorating for the holidays. When my kids were young it was themed more towards what kids like during the holidays. Now that they’re older I still really decorate, but it’s geared more towards what I like!

My third child came over a couple of weeks ago for dinner, first words out of his mouth when he came in the house were “I love how much you decorate for the fall”.  That made me feel so good.

As I’ve discussed in previous blogs I have GAD, General Anxiety Disorder, and having my house feel “comfy & homey”  is very calming and soothing for me. I take a lot of time when I’m decorating. I decorate differently each year,depending on my mood.

This year when I was decorating, I was more stressed… have a lot going on… So my theme was really a comfortable,cozy fall! I honestly find comfort and relaxation when my house feels super comfy.

Peyton helped me decorate this year, he loves pumpkins… So he likes to put the pumpkins in places. The last couple years we haven’t gotten real pumpkins… But we have several pumpkins that light up, and we put those outside.

Peyton decorates  his room as well as the rooms upstairs that he spends the most time in. He really enjoys it,and I enjoy seeing him be creative!

This year I focused quite a bit on my fireplace, our fireplace is very soothing and comforting for me. We got quite a bit to use out of it last year because it was really cold… I’m hoping to get a lot out of it this year too.

Until it really gets cold enough to use it… Although I have to admit anything below 60 and I’m ready to start it up! I’m lighting candles or two on the fireplace and enjoying it that way. Very soothing!

Starting with this blog I’m going to be doing a soothing Sunday blog every Sunday about different things that help me relax. I know I had talked about doing this several months ago… But I got so backed up with helping Peyton with Team Awesomism.

Thanks for hanging in there with me! Thank you for reading this blog and I always love feedback! Please check out Peyton‘s website at https://teamawesomism.com/

Finding My “Comfort Zones”

I haven’t talked about it much, but I have GAD. Which stands for General Anxiety Disorder. I was diagnosed with it over 12 years ago.

I was going through a particularly rough time in my life. So many things were swirling on around me. I felt beyond stressed with every part of my life.

When I was diagnosed with GAD, the diagnosis itself helped to relieve some of my stress. Allowed me to understand why I had such severe anxiety. Up until I was diagnosed, I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t process my anxiety better.

GAD is not something that you get over, it is something you learn to live with. While it can be a daily struggle to deal with, I actually can see positives in it.

I honestly believe that my GAD has allowed me in some ways to understand Peyton better.  I understand his triggers better. I have my own triggers, so I’m a lot more compassionate when he is really stressed.

Severe anxiety is no walk in the park. Sometimes it’s difficult for me to explain to people how my anxiety is affecting my day. It affects my sleep, My daily routines, as well as every other part of my life.

I’ve learned to cope with it in different ways. One of my favorite coping mechanism is to take a hot bath, I especially love taking hot lavender baths.

I’ve come to understand that when I get really stressed I need to do one of three things to my find my comfort zone:

1.  Talk about my stress, exactly what/who is stressing me, so that I can verbally and mentally work through it.

2. Distract myself with something positive that I absolutely love doing. This many times will  allow me to focus on something different …. the original stress actually works its way out naturally.

3. Sleep… Sleep… Sleep !! Yes, sleep helps me a lot. Remember when I said it affects my sleep? If I allow myself to become too tired, I have anxiety issues much quicker!

I’ve also learned that I have to remove toxic people from my life. I can’t allow those who just want to throw negativity at everyone all the time to be in my life on a daily basis. I take things way more to heart than people many times realize I do.

One of the reasons I love my husband so much, is he understands my GAD and works with me, when I’m going through my rough patches. He has this great expression “Shake it off” he knows EXACTLY when I need to hear this…..

He’s a strong support system for me, he plays at my strengths, works through  my weaknesses and shows me unconditional love through it all! He truly is my rock.

I discussed in prior blogs, how Peyton and I are starting team Awesomism ! This project is going to be about “conquering your fear’s and finding your comfort zone.”

One of the biggest things that I’ve learned since being diagnosed with GAD, is how I need to face my anxieties and find my comfort zones! I know I’m far from perfect, and I also have learned not to let others opinions of me, to define me.

I’m a work in progress, but I’m Learning to face my fears, anxieties and stresses and find those awesome comfort zones!

Here is a link to my book…. it’s full of ideas for “comfort zones” 

#Kindle edition:

http://amazon.com/dp/B072BWWCDJ/

#Print edition:

http://amazon.com/Mom-Awesomism-

http://amazon.com/dp/1546641653/

 

 

Light in the Dark Days

I am so happy to have Jay as our guest blogger again! I absolutely love his writing! His blogs are from the heart…. his honesty about his anxiety is refreshing… please follow him on twitter… @stealtheMGaming  as well as his blog….https://beardedigor.wordpress.com/
As I sat on the bus home, headphones in and music blaring, I find myself reflecting on my last few days. These last few days were some of my worst mentally for me. But I take a deep breath and realise a tide is turning.
It all started last Wednesday. I woke up just feeling down. I wasn’t my usual self. Was it the lack of sleep for another night, the humidity or my anxiety. All I know is something is different. I get through work with few problems. Not feeling too bad but I was excited to see my friends for the night.
Thursday however was a different matter.
I spent the whole day shut off. I went to work as normal. But I wasn’t myself, I didn’t talk to anyone, I want smiling or talkative as I can be. I was also snappy. I was truly feeling low. Anxiety was kicking my butt. This continued throughout the night and through the next day. Although by Friday night I was starting to pick up a little I wasn’t prepared for what happened next.
So Friday night. The night my ex blocked me. Now I know I say ex. But I had been waiting for her for 10 weeks to get sorted and come back. That was the deal. But yeah that happened. I felt lost, foolish and idiotic. It really pushed me back down. But it also has an alternative effect. I became motivated. I became empowered.
Despite my anxiety pushing my down and life on top of me. I had a clear goal for the first time in my life. It was me and my blog. I want to be better and I want to be successful. I can’t get rid of anxiety but I plan to use it to push me forward.
Thank you for reading and thank you so much AwesomismMom for letting me be a guest.
Bearded Igor x

Anxiety and Me

We are so honored to have an awesome guest blogger this week! His name is Jay Cator… He blogs about a lot of interesting subjects. I asked him to share his journey with anxiety, with us! I absolutely love this blog, and I hope you do as well! Check out his contact information at the end of the blog! Please give him a follow and show support. Thanks for reading 💜

 

 

Anxiety, a word I have only ever heard at a distance. I never knew what it meant or how it effected people. I’ve always been different to others around me. Ever since I was a late teen, I over thought everything, even to the point where I would cancel plans to stay at home, in my safe place. I worry about every situation, by far my biggest flaw. I have always thought negative of myself and when certain scenarios popped up that could effect my life, the negative always won. I faced rejection constantly. I always shake at confrontation and avoided any situation that could lead me to the slightest harm.

Relationships and friendships followed in similar pattern. Dating I would face rejection at the first hurdle, bad first dates and hate. When I successfully find someone, I was felt like I was not good enough. Like they could do better, have someone who would give them a better life. I would worry constantly. Friends would come and go. The ones who leave I would never hear from again. Used for my kindness and care, it something I got used to.

My world change however when I met my last partner, someone who had anxiety and suddenly I understood. She opened my eyes to what anxiety was. I looked it up and spoke to a doctor and boom. Everything I thought was just me, a character flaw, was all explained. Unfortunately we split recently, more a break as we deal with various issues. But without her I would still be thinking, “why am I so different?” It all made sense. Why I have been, who I have been, has been explained.

I have always had ways of stopping me thinking, stop me worrying about every situation. I would play Xbox, using them to zone myself out into a different world. If that didn’t work, I sit in the corner, headphones in listening to my favourite songs. More recently, I have started writing, which has lead to my blog. Seeing people reading what I have to say and positivity has helped me massively recently. I start to feel I can achieve something, I’m not a failure, I can get better. I also find that following my favourite sports helps.

I have some really close friends that have helped me all these years and I feel very lucky that they are all still there. They all support me in different ways. My family are also a big support for me. I have love around me. I am truly lucky to have this support network, that will never be underestimated.

My biggest advice? Every day is different, so take life as it is every day. Find what comforts you, no matter how big or how small. When you get a victory, no matter how small, celebrate it. Shout it out to the world.

Thank you AwesomismMom for inviting me to write about me. I am honoured. Thank you all for taking the time to read.

Please follow and support Jay!

Blog: http://beardedigor.wordpress.com

Twitter: @stealthemgaming

Be Positive! A Sunday Truth

There is enough negativity in the world. Too many people just want to complain and be negative. That’s the easy route. Start each day focusing on the positives in the world… you may just be pleasantly surprised. Peyton has taught me so many lessons, one being… life is only as tough as you think it is!